me... Me???? ME!!!!!

I've done a lot of changing over the last year and a half.

I mean, I'm basically the same person.  I'm still that quirky chick that you're either gonna love or you're gonna hate.

Obviously you all love me since you are here!  

Or you were just bored enough and clicked on my link.

When I was writing before, my life was in turmoil.  Now that doesn't necessarily mean terrible.  It was chaos.  I mean, I have a crazy life.  Heelloooo!  It's what the blog is called.

Anyway.

Not that I don't have chaos now.  Trust me.  Every day is a crap shoot.

Back then I was still searching for my identity after having three children in four years and losing my job that I had been at for nine years.

Let's not forget that I was quite literally chucked head first into this whole stay at home mom/domestic goddess/ super woman thing.

Hardest transition.  EVER!

Now that I've had a significant amount of time to adjust (and the right combo of medication) I feel like my life is more together.

***yes...medication...don't worry, we'll be talking about that at some point***

I feel like I am more myself now than I ever have been.  If you haven't read my little postcards over to the left there, then you should.  I have little tolerance for crap.  Anyone's crap.  Don't bring your crap to me, and don't try and stick your nose into my life.  If I want you here, I'll invite you in.

I have had too many people make trouble, cause problems, and all together NOT have my or my husband's best interest in their hearts.

Hopefully that little tid-bit sums it up nicely for you.  I'm not going to go into a long drawn out story.  It's not worth my time anymore.  I just wanted to throw that out there and explain how I came to arrive at my newfoundbeenaroundforeverlostthenfoundkindasorta bad attitude.

I love the people I love.  I've even opened up and let new people in..which I do not regret for one second.

I'm back to telling it like it is.  I'm not playing nice-y nice-y anymore.  You don't like it?  Get out of my life.

Sooooooo....don't get me wrong.  I'm not angry even though I'm pretty sure that's how it's coming across.  I am extremely happy.  Though life is still chaotic (and I'm pretty sure that I wouldn't be able to function if it wasn't) I am HAPPY!!!!  

I love where I am and the direction that I'm going.

I am hoping that I can keep up with this and school (oh yeah...getting a bachelor's in nursing) and the kids and the husband and the cheer.....

It's been how long????

So....it's been approximately a year an a half since I have written.  Anything.  Okay, well, I've written things for school, but not for fun.

I think that needs to change.  Like now.  Right now.  Clearly, since I'm writing, and you're reading.

What I have been up to this last year and change?  Up to my freakin' eyeballs in kids, schoolwork, housework, and of all things...cheerleading.  

No, not me, the munchkin.

Uh...well, um, sort of me too.  I got sucked in.  She didn't have a coach....I helped out a little...next thing I know they ask me to be an Assistant Cheer Director.

I know, I know.  I have NEVER.  EVER.  CHEERED.  A.  DAY.  IN.  MY.  LIFE.

I do now.  I said that I would be happy to be an assistant......

Go ahead.  Laugh.  I know you are already anyway.

 More on that later.  Hey, I have to keep you wanting to read more, right?  Seeing as how I have been absent from here and living my chaotic mess of a life.

Let's see, what else?  My husband and I have had the most complicated year.  EVER.  Seriously.  In the history of our entire relationship, it has never been more insanely difficult, and then miraculously we took a right turn and pulled ourselves out of what was making us both horribly miserable.  

I am now happy to say that we are happier we have ever been.  FINALLY!!!!!  I'm happier with him now than I was when we got married....even after when we were traveling.  Crazy.  I know.  Again, more on that later.  

I can't just tell you everything now.  

You won't come back.

If I don't have people reading, I will just be some chick rambling on the internet for no good reason.

Shhhhh..no comments from the peanut gallery.

Let me keep the illusion and my pet unicorn.

I'm going to be changing around the look of this place...maybe switch up the layout.  But one thing's for sure.  The format is still the same.  I can guarantee that you never will guess what I'm going to say.  

I'm charming like that.

And modest.

Stay tuned...